YAY exams are over..had my last chinese paper today though haha,shant talk about it,i just wanna pass and get into the class i want! or combination,haha


BOWLING SEASON IS HERE..START TRAINING FOR MILO OPEN IN DECEMBER..meaning i`ve got less than 2 months to get back my accuracy or to get used to erm..some changes though..haha


school training is gonna start soon..yay? or T.T? i duno! why why? am i having mixed feelings? i`m excited yet like depressed kinda feeling..oh man..whats happening!? EXAMS OVER SUPPOSED TO BE HAPPY...something just dosent seem right..



Guess its something i`ve been wanting to share but i cant..its gonna affect another person..or..its gonna have a great impact on me! ARH i keep having that uncomfortable feeling........which i hate it..



i wonder:


WHAT IF i never transferred school?
WHAT IF i never took up bowling?
WHAT IF i never knew every single one of my friends?



my mind is so full of what ifs..what if when i show my dark side..so that people wont take advantage..right? making use of their kindness..taking advantage of their personality..being jealous of what they have and what they achieve..unlike some people who are just hypocrites being nice for the time being..and after a certain time..they just throw you aside


especially the ones u treat like your best friends..but they treat u like dirt..or a pain in their neck if u cling onto them,actions speak louder than words,dont have to say to know..its so obvious! Will just do anything to get whatever u want,when they something u want so badly can be obtained easily if you do well,i`m not even competiting with u la! u already more than me,probably everything that u`ve wanted,good for u............i cant be bothered not one bit...




I dont even know what to do now,to dao u? or to tolerate? i`m having this cause i`m taking account that u were once kind to me, but for now,i dont know...



anyway..i gtg...pissed.....byebye....