YAY holidays are here,& yeah its time to slog...lol..



sigh actually its quite sian,there's nowhere to go...& i'm not even going for any holidays =(...next year O levels...sigh... u knw sometimes i see my life as a cycle,not really a cycle but rather a routine..=(


OH YAH..till now i was supposed to meet up with vivian & the MMC ppl! =(....sry...maybe dec? =D.. & it only seemed like yesterday when i transferred school...only seemed like yesterday when i got my PSLE results...only seemed like yesterday on my first day in school at primary 1...=)..so sad..



I also realised something...okay no offence...sometimes when u make new friends,u tend to forget the old ones..i duno whether its the same for others...especially when 2 ppl drift away from one another....its very hard to be good friends again...for example...different schools...when they meet up..there's nothing much to talk about other than...oh so how r u? long time no see...everything just changes... then when u see a person has changed...for the good of course is good lah haha...but for the worst..its actually quite sad...like example..a person turn more dao...or more serious...when last time that person tend to joke alot..


err i'm not talking anyone in particular...its just a general statement...something i've observed for quite some time...haha..& this is really quite sad...when this happens...sigh...u cant help but be disappointed...=(..yeah & also...especially when that friend is someone whom you really treated as a good friend....



oh well that is life...i remembered someone once told me...there are different types of friends..



There's one type of friends who only crosses your path in life...which means u only know them for a certain period of time...& suddenly poof! they are gone....lost in contact...



Another type is one who walks u through your life a while...like...maybe u keep in contact up till a certain age...& they just slowly disappear...for example...i know this friend from primary sch till now..then suddenly she just migrated or something...& lost contact...which shows that u arent really that close?



The last type is those who walk you through life's journey no matter what...the kind where u meet & remain as good friends for life...hahah of course everyone would want to meet this kind of friends..but sometimes when u think that this particular friend is of this type....it may not be the case...because they might only cross your path in life...


haha okay i'm saying it till its so complicated...lol...

SIGH SIGH! =(...i just cant qualify for the AIA,& i'm giving up! i really cant donate anymore...i couldnt even bowl a 700 series...seriously.... i just cant...& i need at least a 19 avg to qualify..wasted 6 MQs...i guess i'm not good enough...


I'm also not going milo anymore...many reasons...i cant win novice...cant qualify for AIA...if i go there i'm just helping the overseas bowlers to pay their airfare & their accomodation..


=(....i just duno what to do..sigh!

Recently,i've been having dreams of getting into NY...seriously...i'm not kidding,then i wake up thinking that it seemed quite real,=(...but its just only a dream...& u knw,sometimes dreams can be actually happen in life( as in REALLY REALLY happen the exact same thing)...but most of the time it dosent..=(



i dun really have anything to blog about now except that...haha AIA starts tml! xD,from the 13th-22nd...=)




THANK GOD!!! hahahah!!! I GOT INTO AAA FOR MY COE SELECTIONS! HAHAHA THANK GOD!!!!!!!! its really a miracle...xD....seriously....believe in Christ & he'll never forsake you,even if He seems silent...stick to the faith.....because those who are faithful to him will harvest fruitfulness...really! i'm serious...i've experienced this....miracles...everything....THANK YOU LORD FOR EVERYTHING! =)

Today was rather a normal day for me,=) except that i went bowling with yijing today...okay...i shall blog about it...




In the morning it was raining kinda heavily,so i called yijing & told her that i might be late cause my mum wouldnt let me go if the rain was too heavy,so i agreed to meet up at 2pm at yishun mrt station,but i think we met slightly earlier if i'm not wrong..


yepp dragged my bowling bag out of house and took 59 all the way to bishan...before hopping on to a mrt to yishun...haha met her there & saw yijing coming with a cup of chocolate brownie fudge ben & jerry's ice cream from 7-11...& 1 small cup like that was already $5...super expensive...haha,but its okay i mean its worth it anyway...cause its yummy!


After that we took the OCC shuttle bus to OCC...and had lunch at the bowling alley,i was the only one who was eating as cream already eaten her meal,ate horfun today ^^...so long never eat already,really enjoy it..=)...After that we got a lane to bowl..and it was lane..erm..15? yepp...but the lane was wayyyyyyyyy to dry to bowl...its like almost impossible...the kind of lane which looks it hasnt been oiled since yesterday night? or probably ALOT of ppl bowled...then dry the lanes up till like that...so we transferred to lane 3...haha,& it was much better...the purpose of going there today was to practice my spares...somemore AIA venue is gonna be there,so might as well..killing two birds with one stone...^^..yepp and halfway during our game,we saw regina and gracesin...we waved like siao to them,& it was really funny,cause they had the blur blur look,like thinking...who are those ppl? haha & waving to who uh? zzz...



After that we had to move again,all the way to lane 23,cause SBF were having training there,& as i was bowling,i was looking in their direction,thinking to myself,"woah...somehow i wish i could don national colours one day,just one day...i get to be there,bowling with them,going for competitions outside the country..wherever u go,u just own the lanes,no worries about qualifying...worrying whether your name can stay by the time the last squad is played,worrying whether masters you stand a chance....etc.." sigh,but its gonna take me a miracle to get me there,a very very big miracle....so I must have faith!


Soon,it was time to go home,cause yijing had to go home & vote for a new condo! hahah! polling session! =x....i played a total of 6 games if i'm not wrong...& yijing played 4 games? i think so..^^.. yepp & we ended at the same time as reg & gracesin...oh yes,& yijing & reg decided to join NEBO! hahah! cheaper bowling rates...$2.50 per game,& memebership fees is only $20 for 3 yrs! walo...last time i paid $29 for 3 yrs,then the deals also not so good,=(...nevermind..i shant dwell on the past...zzz


Oh yes during bowling,me & yijing were singing all the songs from hsm 3...like a night to remember...now or never...actually i think its almost all of them,especially can i have this dance and right here,right now...-.-....we were singing a duet! haha like troy & gabriella...awwwww...=x....dun get the wrong idea please.....we are just hyper about hsm 3..^^...& so happen we like the songs...so we started singing! ^^


yepp...after bowling i took MRT home...all the way back to TP..=),& thats how my day ended...



=(,tis thurs AIA starts! yes i'm happy,but as i was bowling today i realised that my strike rate is pretty low,i always have 1 pin left on the deck..its not frustrating or what,but my ball speed is relatively slow...its been so long..guess i havent improve much,but at least today i got to practice all my spares...pin 10 & pin 7..my 2 weakest pins...and of cuz pin 5..haha..=)..


Guess what,there's also NY selections coming at the end of this month...29th nov..sigh,i'm in a dilemma whether i shld go for it or not,i mean,first of all its not cheap its $160......secondly...i'm really thinking to myself,do i have what it takes to become a national youth player?.....only God knows =),& i have faith in him

There are so many things i wanna say,& i dont even know where to start...



TODAY--> i had novice masters...first of all wanna congratulate celine for the 279 game! =),yepp! haha well done!

That was supposingly the only " happy thing" that happened to me today...i've been feeling sad for the whole day....& yeah i got over the disappointing performance today during masters.....wait or maybe not, but....but...i cant help but feeling sad,there are so many things i wanna say...but words wont be able to express how i'm feeling...its like...frustrating...sad....depressed?? not only on bowling...but on studies as well..


sometimes i just wonder.. What is His purpose for me in my life? i really wanna know... & the more i think the more i feel like my heart is heavier...its just SOOOOOOOOOOO hard!



TODAY....during my masters event...i missed SUPER easy spares! pin 10....7...etc...really easy ones,REALLY REALLY EASY ONES...i'm just wondering...what on earth is wrong with my sparing.....how come i cant take??? if this goes on...how am i gonna do well in bowling? seeing the ball passes the pins without hitting it down just feels like my heart is being stabbed with a sharp knife,& the worst is that sometimes u cant stop thinking of it...like thinking why why why?



Now i have to go & retrain everything single thing.........& i need to go and study too,O levels is next year..& I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY wanna make it to SAJC......GAH!!! Pray hard,work hard & play hard man...somemore nxt year is my last year in b div...=(...its just my last chance already...its seriously "now or never"....




GAH holidays i'm gonna chiong bowling! & studies as well! AIA is just this coming thurs....MILO is at the end of the year...& i really wonder...is it worth going?