I had the motivation to blog so yeah,here i am...was thinking to myself that blogs are a good thing cause it lets u express yourself...ppl like me use this to be emo.....
time already flies so fast...now already july..T_T...getting nearer and nearer to the end of year exams..AHH i cant stand it...i wish i had a computer in my brain...just save everything into a folder...then exam time just open it and take it out...T.T...GAHHH...alot of things to remember!!! =(...
As for bowling...really slackening up already...i mean...no more trainings anymore...but now c div is already over...and yeah its gonna resume..till now..i havent even trained on my speed...it was a goal going on for 2 years plus already..ever since CBA...when Alvin told me my speed was slow..then i could still remember i said..okay...by the end of this year...i`d better increase my speed....make sure that its fast enough...but then it dragged on to c div last year...then i said..okay...by next year b div(2008)...i dun care i`m gonna increase it no matter what...but come this year b div...its still so slow...i keep procastinating...Tried a variety of ways to do it....like changing my timing and higher my backswing or follow through fast...but it still ended up the same speed...gees....frsutrating....... lets hope that by the end of this year...my speed will somewhat increase before milo..otherwise...i duno how i`m gonna play on those dry lanes...i just cant imagine where my ball is gonna start hooking and how its gonna hook....
Recently been contemplating..about the topic on friends...i just wanna blog this out...cause i cant keep it in the inside of me anymore.... let me start by(i`m not gonna tell who or what i`m talking about): i`m trying to socialise...i mean like..TRY to talk about stuff they know...but i just cant...my topic always end up in the drain...then they just go on talking about ppl...ppl that i dun know...i dun blame them or what,but i just feel so out sometimes...
in their eyes i will always be someone new....like a clique of their own together...i`m being left out...i mean...i feel so small when i`m around with them...i`m saying not all are like this but then...i just feel so out..probably words cant really express what i`m trying to say,or even if u read this,its much more pain...God knows me...he knows my pain,and only he can heal them
and i remembered...i was so desperate just to come here,i was so happy when i got it...i told the Lord i would face the consequences,i knew that this kind of thing would like somehow happen, cause i`m new...even how much i want to say hi, i`m just afraid u`ll just diao me,when ppl diao u, u just feel like,very embarrased...arhgg,yes that feeling...it sucks...so since its like this,i`ll join the others,i`ll join ppl whom i feel happy with,
just pray about this,and i hope the pain will soon be gone.
i think that i should feel happy and blessed...i mean,it could have been worst,shall stop emoing and start counting my blessings,=).....
sry Lord for emoing..T.T,but i`m just sad...
guess thats all i wanna say, =)i know actually there`s many more stuff to blog about...yeah but i`ll probably them some other time...
SOMETHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO:SUNDAY!!! 10 GAMES SERIES WEEEEE!!!!!!!!
SECONDARY SCHOOL LEAGUE YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NOVICE BOWLING CHALLENGE!!
AIA OPEN WHOOHOO!!!!
AND OF COURSE WHO CAN FORGET THE LONG AWAITED
MILO INTERNATIONAL OPEN 2008
