Today was rather a busy day for me,i woke up early today & went to church =DD,went to adult service today =),& the topic was on God's grace...its like,in everything u achieve, its by God's grace! =) actually there's much more to that,but i'm just giving a overview...=) & today also happen to be the second part of the "no limits" series =) another 2 weeks x)



Well after that i came back home,as my squad for tonight's inter constituency bowling tournament was at 7.30pm...so i used the com for a while before my mum & i left the house,=) took no 5. all the way to tiong bahru & then hop onto a 195 to safra mt faber..=)



Reached there rather early,saw many ppl there,& its really alot,cause the 4pm squad was still on..



Soon i saw vincent,was kinda shocked that he was under my CC too,haha lol...then went to the lanes to warm-up...started off with a 195 & ended off with a 156,it was a total of 3 games only and i bowled 131 for the 2nd...in the end we got 1st because thanks to vincent! haha he bowled super well 22+ avg,yepp...




When i went home,i was doing some self-reflection...



especially the 2nd game,my whole game was full of 9 pins,but i JUST JUST JUST couldnt take that spare,its that kind of feeling,whereby u JUST JUST cant bowl,its so disappointing,=(,i really felt super lousy then,because this thing is not an individual event,its a team event,so your scores will affect the whole team's total pinfall,& every game really counts! sry not every game,its every PIN! when i couldnt take my spare i could feel fear gripping me,its just so hard to explain,u need to have first hand experience...



but all i can just say is that its a very lousy feeling u r having,confidence all gone that kind of feeling,sigh... but Thank God Vincent bowled well sia,at least...we got into the finals...




& u knw...guess what,out of this 3 games,i only had 4 STRIKES...yes! 4 strikes in 3 games! No matter how hard i bowled,where i shift here and there,its always 1 pin left...2 pins left.....etc...whereas when i see all the other ppl bowl...woah strike like no one's business....



Actually when i went there i saw some NY ppl,saw the way they bowled....and the pins fall so easily! their basics are rock strong,their release is smooth,their stepping is ideal,their sparing is accurate,their rev is so nice... i hate to admit this oh Lord(i know its wrong),but....i do feel envious of them,i admire them for their confidence....their release,their stepping,their rev,their scores especially...their mental,so how i asked myself....how do u be THAT kind of bowler? i know the solution,trust God & work hard(seriously...i hate to admit it,its easy to accept christ,but tough to follow in his ways)



I really feel so sad with myself,i admit i get impatient very easily...sigh.....
just now when i was bowling,i kept missing simple spares too,like pin 5 etc...i cant keep myself properly balanced,my timing is way off,my release kept changing,Oh God please help me! =(



Nowadays each time i bowl i feel a mixture of feelings in my heart, the feeling of fear,fear of failures,lack of confidence and many others,seriously i cant put it into words...its tough,not only for this,exams too,=(




i just hope for the best,cause by having faith,i know it'll see me through this tough period,even if it takes a really long time,just hang on to God & seriously everything would be fine =)i just know it.....i just know it...



till next time...............................














today's performance left me feeling very disappointed with myself,