There are so many things i wanna say,& i dont even know where to start...



TODAY--> i had novice masters...first of all wanna congratulate celine for the 279 game! =),yepp! haha well done!

That was supposingly the only " happy thing" that happened to me today...i've been feeling sad for the whole day....& yeah i got over the disappointing performance today during masters.....wait or maybe not, but....but...i cant help but feeling sad,there are so many things i wanna say...but words wont be able to express how i'm feeling...its like...frustrating...sad....depressed?? not only on bowling...but on studies as well..


sometimes i just wonder.. What is His purpose for me in my life? i really wanna know... & the more i think the more i feel like my heart is heavier...its just SOOOOOOOOOOO hard!



TODAY....during my masters event...i missed SUPER easy spares! pin 10....7...etc...really easy ones,REALLY REALLY EASY ONES...i'm just wondering...what on earth is wrong with my sparing.....how come i cant take??? if this goes on...how am i gonna do well in bowling? seeing the ball passes the pins without hitting it down just feels like my heart is being stabbed with a sharp knife,& the worst is that sometimes u cant stop thinking of it...like thinking why why why?



Now i have to go & retrain everything single thing.........& i need to go and study too,O levels is next year..& I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY wanna make it to SAJC......GAH!!! Pray hard,work hard & play hard man...somemore nxt year is my last year in b div...=(...its just my last chance already...its seriously "now or never"....




GAH holidays i'm gonna chiong bowling! & studies as well! AIA is just this coming thurs....MILO is at the end of the year...& i really wonder...is it worth going?